Depression and pain
2007-04-11
April 11
Today is the 5th day of extreme pain and depression, this is the worse I have had in awhile.
I usually run around 5 or 6 pain level but something has happened to make it 9 to 10. I very sure that I wont be getting up tomorrow because my back is out , I had an epidural a few weeks ago I was hoping that it would last for awhile, so might have to get another next week when I have my trigger point injections in my neck. My entire body hurts so I am dbl my pain meds, my doctor upped my Cymbalta to 90mg a day so maybe that will help.
It snowed lthis morining a lot of snow, It was pretty for awhile, suppose to have more tomorrow. one good thing it wont last long, cant wait until real spring gets here. Cant complain thoug, we didnt have much winter really. I need sunshine to get out of this crappy depression. I will be ok one minute and crying the next, so stupid. I never had this kind of stuff to deal with and I just dont like it at all. I was depressed when my father and sister died and very depressed when my best friend was killed in an auto accident. I came out of it faster than I am now. And I wasnt taking anything then, just cant understand it all, there are alot of peolpe that have more serious problems than I.
My 5 yr old nephew stayed with me tonight, boy he can keep you on your toes, he loves to play on the computer, but I have to help him with certain games, he just loves it. I get him off the computer and read to him and do teaching games with him, all he wants is someone to play with. I adore him, he just so cute and smart. Children are a blessing we should learn from them, laugh more and have fun.
I took 2 pain pills and sleeping pill and I think I might try to sleep, sometimes I just lay there and get back up and do reading or watch tv. To much pain so I think I wont win any sleep tonight.
Later gator
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