days drag on and on
2007-04-12
April 12
I remember when I couldn't wait until the day would end, now that I don't work they really drag on and on. I try to sleep or just stay in bed late so the day would be gone. How dumb is that?
Life is too short to wish it away. No matter what stage Im in pain from this day on I am going to try to make changes in my life. I will find something that I like to do and I will try my best to do it. I like to do jigsaw puzzles, cross words,read ,andhave a great cup of coffee with a friend. So I will do what my psycologist ask and start thinking what I can do, not what I can't do.
My friend and I are going to join the Parish Fellowship Board at church in June, that will keep us busy. It will be start to get out of my house. I am also looking into voluntering at a clinic or somewhere that I can use my skills. I was an office manager for an ophthalmologist for 23 years, I can help in insurance, HIPPA, OSHA,credentialing,transcription,filing etc, seem terrible to let it all go to waste, if I can contribute something. That is what I need to do I have to feel like I'm still capable of making decisions and be independant, somewhat.
Depression has a way of thinking that you have no self worth, I need to work on this. Bringing me down big time
I don't like this feeling, ya know I don't even know if the meds are working or not. Oh that is why they a re giving more antidepression meds LOL. Not because I'm goofy enough. Life is grand isn't it? If it dosn't break you first.
ER is on gotta go.
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