[Mary's Blog]

Here it is Oct. 12, the and it is the same old shit again.Not alot of things going on,

:ife sucks and I can imagine it is going to stay that way. I have been involved

with therapy for 5 months now. I have from T11 thry T12 L1thruS3 8 herniatted disc, bulging DDD,facet diseaseand surgery is out.So will continue to get worse, I will have to live with itm and stay on medication and PT rest of my life, sounds like fun to me LOLOLO and injections .

So bring it in. I can't drive, becaues Im on narcotics. YUK.I fkn bored out of my head. My thereapy is done, I have used up all the time on it. Can't have now until next yr

So pian doc is going to start facet injections, not looking forewood to those. Next step maybe the pian pump or stimualter inplant. Wiating for my lawyer to advise me what to do. All I know is that inm in a lot of pain, can barely get out of bedand there has to be something better I am depressed big time ready to throw in the towell.Im really under the meds right now and doing the best I can to stay  awake. 

 

 

 

 

 

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Well Hello all. It has been along time that I have writ'ten . I will try to the best I can, I have very hard time with the right hand, as you will see me in writting this.I have been busy with 8 doctors and MRIs Physical therapty for 10 weeks now. I have had 3 epidurals in upper and low back, I eill start facet injection next noth,I have been oin the durgesic Frentynal 25 ng paths wear evers tos day,I now take 15 mgs ot Norco for break thru pain. 335mg Efexor fpr deppresiom,and 10 mg of Valiums 2 times a day.Iprettty much am out of it. I can' drive at all now. So I have to find a driver.Family had to claen my house for me, I am not alollowed to do anyting. Almost burned mu house down 6 times now, becuse I cant rembember. I have really went down in the last 2 months, have emotion brakdons, screming periods, suicidul thouhgts.

It has been not so fun for me, I will not get better, surgery is aout of the question, amd degernaertive disesea will get worse. This is the best I will be for a short time.I keep going but I really dont know why? I can't do anymore right now very tired, it tkaes alot out of me, I hope ou r all well Mary